How Little I Know

Grad school is revealing to me the truth in the saying, "The more you know, the more you know you don't know." Seriously.

I didn't get a TA position for next year. I was really hoping for a TA position. I don't know how I am going to pay for school next year. I can't go at the pace I am going this year. Working as much as I am plus school is recipe for total burnout. I can totally take out loans, but I only feel comfortable doing that for one year at most.

Yet honestly, I am scared when I think about graduating and having to find a big person job. While more prepared, there is so much more to know! I really have no idea what I am actually qualified to do.

With so many applications out there, of course most of them will be rejections. Yet after receiving just a few rejections, I already feel dejected and expect nothing to pan out. At least then, if something works out, I will be pleasantly surprised, right?